Thursday, June 9, 2011

A Recent Dream...

I recently had a dream, and I woke from it with that feeling that I should write it down, and record it. This was the result of that writing. A poem that I have hesitated in sharing, yet decided today to throw it out there. I have such wonderful family and friends in my life that surround me with love and kindness... yet I do admit this topic wonders into my head from time to time, especially after a dream, such as the one this poem speaks of. Hope you enjoy:

I feel the weight of a dream, that was sent from the divine...
Where I'm holding a son, that I know is mine...
"With whom"? I ask, as I long for a reply,
Yet silence falls, and I'm left waiting....wondering... "why"?
Why can't I know whom this person will be...? The one who, in the end, will be standing by me.
Why have the heavens closed to the answer that I seek?
Why, Oh God, can't I just hear you speak?
And so I wait and I pray, for that still small voice...
Or maybe I'm wrong in asking...maybe it's completely my choice...?
Patience to be learned, and confusion still inside...
Yet I feel the weight of my dream, may I act, and not hide...!!

Would love to hear thoughts in return...


  1. I think we can all relate to this. We all seek answers and wonder why it's taking so long. At least you're praying. You're one step closer than I am. One of my favorite quotes is "life is what happens when you're busy making other plans." I totally understand the frustration of having the same dream over and over and not knowing why. Like you said,patience has to be learned. The answer will come so fast you won't know what hit you and most unexpectedly.Don't wait for it,just live. Life is too short.

  2. Two lines from your poem struck me:
    "And so I wait and I pray, for that still small voice...
    Or maybe I'm wrong in asking...maybe it's completely my choice...?"

    In my life I have found that sometimes all He waits for is for us to ask...for our deepest desires and wishes or for the simple things. He cannot give some things (answers, blessings, etc.) until we ask. And other times He IS waiting on our decision. Sometimes we are struggling between two (or more) right decisions, but it is up to us to determine what will make us happiest, and then He works with us from that point. I'm not saying you do this, but some people erroneously think they need to rely on divine assistance for nearly every decision made. That's not entirely true. If we need to be counseled in everything, than why do we have agency?

    And for you? A poem for a poem:

    Straight is the lane.
    Planned are the stops.
    Finish line easy to see.
    And life rolls slowly in.
    Obscured – now an unsure path to the goal first imagined.

    Earthly eyes blocked from perceiving.
    Glowing wet mist surrounds, encompasses, inhibits.
    Weary and unsure of the next step, trusting, I go forward;
    A few steps into the unknown and a little distance farther opens.
    Onward—running on a cleared path.

    Impenetrable fog results in knees meeting earth;
    Crawling close to the ground to see a direction.
    Always forward.
    On the peak, eyes wander and take in the beauty.
    Original goal – off in the distance.

    Looking back, the path, the twists, turns and difficult ways,
    Thankful pathways don’t always lead in planned directions.

  3. Nice! Crazy to just come across this page but Nice! Did you see yourself from outside yourself like looking through another persons eyes...also the height of how you saw were you higher in the room or was it across and at eye level.. Did anything about yourself seem abnormal? at some point did you see from your own eyes looking at the child? Was the baby awake or asleep and did the child look healthy? Was the room bright or dark or any particular colors? What you were shown are clues to actual physical or spiritual representations. Did you have any other dreams that have come with this? Whatever part of the dream as you think about it somehow seems to stick behind the eyes like you just cant stop looking at it. I dont know how to explain just watch it in your mind and wait and listen. If this came from above the dream is and I hope to not sound to crazy but its still alive and active and new stuff will be revealed. More understanding and revelations will come. Some representations could be that you will have or you have been given a gift that needs protecting and nurturing or that God is calling you into or is calling you deeper into "intimacy"... it could represent inheritance or legacy that your passing something on... There should be 1 or 2 details being highlighted for you that are not always the most obvious.. If you dont figure it out just put it aside and come back to it every now and then... and a little down the road something else will probably be declared to you and it will trigger the memory of the dream...and you will know that they are related and can take another look at it...

  4. Have you heard of the book "When God Winks on Love"? I just finished reading it, because I'm frustrated in my search for "the one." God hasn't answered my prayers on this either. But, I haven't given up hope. I guess when you meet the one you're intended to be with, things will just click between the two of you...and best of all, coincidences will confirm that you're heading in the right direction.

  5. Your poem was truly an inspiration! I know exactly what you mean when the poem just hit you and then you had to get up to write it down. This has happened to me numerous times. I can tell that God is working through me through the poems I write when the words come so easily to convey a spiritual message. God does work in such wondrous and sometimes mysterious ways. Whenever something negative occurs in our lives, God is always there are someone we can talk to through praying. No matter what happens, God is there to pick us right back up and the good thing is that God never changes and he never will change.

  6. James 1:[4] But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

    Keep your ear to His mouth. He will speak. He will answer.

  7. Great poem. Thank you for sharing those words. As others have said, we probably all feel like that at one point or another. I know it seems like I am asking “who, in the end, will be standing by me,” a lot lately.

    I don’t believe it is “either” asking God (praying), “or” our choice…it is “both” asking God, “and” our choice…each of us working with God in all areas of our lives.

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  9. I have thoroughly enjoyed the comments back from you all! It's empowering to learn from you all, and I thank you! Sometimes we all need a bit of borrowed vision, yet that's only possible if people are willing to share. So I thank you, because I have been the recipient...which I needed. God bless!
    As I stated in my poem,,.. "may I act, and not hide"... Wish me the best! :)

  10. Really nice poem, thank you for sharing this part of you with us :)
    God bless you

  11. Matthew,
    I want to say thank you for your blog posts. I follow your blog regularly and most of the time I find that your posts make me really think. I reflect on myself and my life. I don't usually posts comments because I'm not very eloquent. But I want you to know that you do have a way with words and I am thankful for that. :)

  12. Wow, Matthew - what a powerful feeling that poem invoked. It brought tears to my eyes, because you have put into words what so many of us have felt and continue to feel. Thank you for being brave enough and strong enough to share - I know you have strengthened me...

  13. I know I'm a few weeks late on this but I just discovered your blogs and have been check them out... I was reminded of this passage when I read your poem.
    1Ki 19:11 "And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD. And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the LORD was not in the earthquake: 12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice."
    I think that sometimes the noise in our lives can keep us from hearing what He is trying to speak to us. Sometimes we can only hear His voice when we're sitting still and just listening for his instructions... After all "good things come to those who wait."

  14. Beautiful, Matthew. Thank you for sharing that poem.

  15. I love the line, "Or maybe it's completely my choice". I see so many people scared to jump into something (a relationship, career venture etc.) because they don't get a resounding answer. There have been times in my life that the Lord has prompted me to do something that I didn't, and there have been other times that I have asked and waited to receive and the answer I get is, "You have your agency, it is a gift, you have to learn how to trust yourself to make wise choices." I believe the Lord is careful in how much he 'tells' us what to do. If he tells us what to do, it ultimately is taking away our agency. If we go by our feelings, gut and intuition then if something doesn't pan out the way we thought it should, we can't blame God for the imperfect circumstances. So many people are blamers and using our agency forces us to take responsibility. With that being said, I do believe the Lord does tell us how to avoid danger, unnecessary hurt and at times does send us resounding answers one way or the other. It could be that when you dreamed your dream the person who is supposed to be the mother of that son was not in your life, therefore God could not give you the answer you were looking for. I loved the poem. You are talented with words Matt!

  16. No, you are not wrong in asking, it is probably not time yet for this dream. Though when it comes it would be your choice to follow or not. Everything is coming when it should be – this approach requires patience and faith, but it seems to work when looking backwards.
    Sometimes people remain mute because of their fears, and you are strong when sharing and revealing your thoughts! I hope that the world doesn’t lose a chance to give you a reply and energy!
    Thanks for being an example!



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